10.28.2005
it's been a while now...
...since i posted something of any substance. got one upcoming soon. kisses to anyone who can guess what That's about...
but for now, i'm going to take a break and spend hours staring at the ceiling while out of town.
it's been a wild month for me and everything just went by so fast. putting some distance so i can process this well.
but i've been one-two'd...i guess i deserve that. actually, not one-two'd. i've been treated very decently...it's just me and a propensity for emotional mayhem.
i am so grateful, though, to know what awesome friends i have and that i am, truly, a nice person who just can't...just can't...use people =)
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up next, in a couple of days...Great Love and Great Distraction
but for now, i'm going to take a break and spend hours staring at the ceiling while out of town.
it's been a wild month for me and everything just went by so fast. putting some distance so i can process this well.
but i've been one-two'd...i guess i deserve that. actually, not one-two'd. i've been treated very decently...it's just me and a propensity for emotional mayhem.
i am so grateful, though, to know what awesome friends i have and that i am, truly, a nice person who just can't...just can't...use people =)
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up next, in a couple of days...Great Love and Great Distraction
10.18.2005
20 random things
...as tagged...
here's what i need to do: write 20 random facts about me then tag the same amount of people as minutes it takes you to write the facts.
1. I very much favor Sony Ericcson mobile phones, especially since the earlier models were so clunky and awkward to use
2. I seriously want to work for Wow, Mali! or Bhitoy’s World.
3. I reject retail stores’ plastic bags as much as possilbe. Save the environment, ‘lam mo na.
4. I love to experiment in the kitchen…cooking food, I mean.
5. I think I’m pure-hearted (I’m arrogant, too, yeah.)
6. My favorite chocolate: either really dark and bitter, or white and way too sweet.
7. I’ve always loved daisies and mumps because they are your “basic” flowers, petals, pollen, stem and not much else. Nothing complicated about these flowers. Nobody attaches that much meaning to them, either.
8. I’ve challenged someone twice my weight to a tequila showdown…and lost.
9. My closet extends to my bed, my sister’s bed, my bookshelf, the floor, countless paper bags under the bed…
10. I’m always planning my funeral and wake party, from the music down to the activities, etc. I want the people in my life to literally celebrate my life and focus on the end of my story instead of sitting around playing cards and drinking coffee.
11. Best luxury yet to have: sleeping in a soft bed with clean, white sheets, hugging huge, fluffy pillows that have a hint of vanilla scent, and having my favorite music in the background.
12. My left foot is bigger by one size than my right. Thus the difficulty in looking for closed-toe footwear.
13. I want to run a center that takes care of disabled animals, and lets them be adopted by caring people.
14. I have a standing agreement with my brother that I can sell him should the Dave Matthews Band come to this country and charge exorbitant ticket rates.
15. I make a lot of important decisions when I have/just had/will have my period.
16. Being under the sun or being hungry is the best way I keep myself awake.
17. I love taking walks. I do a lot of walking during my lunch break, when I don’t feel like eating but feel like reflecting.
18. I need to be up a mountain or under a nice waterfall…as in now!
19. Bath tubs turn me on very, very much.
20. I can burp on cue.
tagging: cel, kweesee, joy, ri, gerwin and ping.
here's what i need to do: write 20 random facts about me then tag the same amount of people as minutes it takes you to write the facts.
1. I very much favor Sony Ericcson mobile phones, especially since the earlier models were so clunky and awkward to use
2. I seriously want to work for Wow, Mali! or Bhitoy’s World.
3. I reject retail stores’ plastic bags as much as possilbe. Save the environment, ‘lam mo na.
4. I love to experiment in the kitchen…cooking food, I mean.
5. I think I’m pure-hearted (I’m arrogant, too, yeah.)
6. My favorite chocolate: either really dark and bitter, or white and way too sweet.
7. I’ve always loved daisies and mumps because they are your “basic” flowers, petals, pollen, stem and not much else. Nothing complicated about these flowers. Nobody attaches that much meaning to them, either.
8. I’ve challenged someone twice my weight to a tequila showdown…and lost.
9. My closet extends to my bed, my sister’s bed, my bookshelf, the floor, countless paper bags under the bed…
10. I’m always planning my funeral and wake party, from the music down to the activities, etc. I want the people in my life to literally celebrate my life and focus on the end of my story instead of sitting around playing cards and drinking coffee.
11. Best luxury yet to have: sleeping in a soft bed with clean, white sheets, hugging huge, fluffy pillows that have a hint of vanilla scent, and having my favorite music in the background.
12. My left foot is bigger by one size than my right. Thus the difficulty in looking for closed-toe footwear.
13. I want to run a center that takes care of disabled animals, and lets them be adopted by caring people.
14. I have a standing agreement with my brother that I can sell him should the Dave Matthews Band come to this country and charge exorbitant ticket rates.
15. I make a lot of important decisions when I have/just had/will have my period.
16. Being under the sun or being hungry is the best way I keep myself awake.
17. I love taking walks. I do a lot of walking during my lunch break, when I don’t feel like eating but feel like reflecting.
18. I need to be up a mountain or under a nice waterfall…as in now!
19. Bath tubs turn me on very, very much.
20. I can burp on cue.
tagging: cel, kweesee, joy, ri, gerwin and ping.
10.17.2005
magus!
gots nothin' better to do...
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10.07.2005
En Fin
A little under a month ago, a friend gave me a copy of the album Grace by Jeff Buckley. Before that, I had been singing Last Goodbye for weeks. How was I supposed to know it would be a portent of things to come?
Some of you may know the goings-on in my life these past three weeks, and have seen a rejuvenated look on my face. I feel more alive, yes, but partly for the wrong reasons. And as a consequence, these reasons, along with a few right ones, are all I have right now. That and the stupid resolve to never want anything too much anymore.
The story: My heart was in faraway lands, but the rest of me was just right here.
A lover’s discourse: read the first one
In my gut, I know it’s been a long time coming. But no one is ever really prepared for it when it does happen. Suffice to say, I regret nothing in this big drama I like to think my life is.
You say things. You do things. You want things. You hope for things. Sometimes they happen. Sometimes they don’t. Inject an unexpected, unlooked for element and it can all go haywire.
I hate it, and love it at the same time.
Ah, me! The melodramatic princess.
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Last Goodbye
Jeff Buckley
This is our last goodbye
I hate to feel the love between us die
But it's over
Just hear this and then I’ll go
You gave me more to live for
More than you'll ever know
This is our last embrace
Must I dream and always see your face?
Why can't we overcome this and more?
Baby, maybe it’s just because you didn't know me at all
Kiss me, please kiss me
But kiss me out of desire, babe, not consolation
Oh, you know it makes me so angry
'Cause I know that in time, I'll only make you cry
this is our last goodbye
Did you say, "No, this can't happen to me"
Did you rush to the phone to call
Was there a voice unkind in the back of your mind
Saying maybe you didn't know him at all
Well, the bells out in the church tower chime
Burning clues into this heart of mine
Thinking so hard on her soft eyes
And the memories offer signs that it's over
Over...
Some of you may know the goings-on in my life these past three weeks, and have seen a rejuvenated look on my face. I feel more alive, yes, but partly for the wrong reasons. And as a consequence, these reasons, along with a few right ones, are all I have right now. That and the stupid resolve to never want anything too much anymore.
The story: My heart was in faraway lands, but the rest of me was just right here.
A lover’s discourse: read the first one
In my gut, I know it’s been a long time coming. But no one is ever really prepared for it when it does happen. Suffice to say, I regret nothing in this big drama I like to think my life is.
You say things. You do things. You want things. You hope for things. Sometimes they happen. Sometimes they don’t. Inject an unexpected, unlooked for element and it can all go haywire.
I hate it, and love it at the same time.
Ah, me! The melodramatic princess.
**************
Last Goodbye
Jeff Buckley
This is our last goodbye
I hate to feel the love between us die
But it's over
Just hear this and then I’ll go
You gave me more to live for
More than you'll ever know
This is our last embrace
Must I dream and always see your face?
Why can't we overcome this and more?
Baby, maybe it’s just because you didn't know me at all
Kiss me, please kiss me
But kiss me out of desire, babe, not consolation
Oh, you know it makes me so angry
'Cause I know that in time, I'll only make you cry
this is our last goodbye
Did you say, "No, this can't happen to me"
Did you rush to the phone to call
Was there a voice unkind in the back of your mind
Saying maybe you didn't know him at all
Well, the bells out in the church tower chime
Burning clues into this heart of mine
Thinking so hard on her soft eyes
And the memories offer signs that it's over
Over...
